I was going to write this on facebook but…..

Oh 2011, wow oh wow have you gone by fast. Along with the speed you carry comes a lot of ups,downs, ins, and outs. I can’t complain about any of them, since they make me who I am and place me where I stand. You have brought me many unfamiliar faces who have now become friends and some even friends who are family. You have introduced me to family I didn’t even know I had and brought me closer to the ones who have always been there. You have given me the opportunity to grow with my sisters which is a blessing considering we were kept apart for about 19 years of my life. Aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, and everything in between, welcome to my life since we have been recently introduced. For the losses you have thrown my way….RIP Alex Cordova, I will never understand why you took your life and opportunity to watch your little boy grow up away from yourself. February 11,2011. Those losses have made my heart heavy but have also taught me nothing in life is promised or always completely planned. For someone who is a strict time nazi and planning fiend, that is a HUGE lesson to be taught…I’m still trying to grasp it. You can say this year was a year where I truly discovered how much trust I put into people and how much that can backfire. You showed me how indecisive I can be along with how loving I truly am. You’ve watched me grow. From getting my feet into the salons,to moving out into my own place, to fixing my relationship with my father. Wow…that’s a big one. I never hated my father not once, and you can say I was never a daddy’s girl, but he was never in my life really until this year. I never looked at him as a figure I would want to be or wanting to live my life like his. He was never someone I would call if I needed help and I knew if I did he certainly wouldn’t have been there….until this year. He has 100% finished his drug program, took 18 months. He would say he wanted to leave all the time and how he hated not being able to do anything. I threatened him saying he better finish or I wouldn’t talk to him ever again. He finished.He made a speech the day of his graduation ceremony saying that he’s sorry to everyone in his life. He said that he knows he caused the most pain to me, his daughter and that he’s sorry. I broke down in the crowd….it’s what I needed to hear. I couldn’t be more proud of this man. He is no longer anything I said in the above paragraph. It’s hard not to cry while writing this out. He has become someone I now look forward to seeing and talking to and I can see him really being there for me now. To have this bond is something that truly completes me. So thank you 2011 for giving me this. Thank you also for bringing back to me the little boy whos heart I broke back in middle school, my wonderful, beautiful, boyfriend. It’s almost been a year and half with him and I can honestly say no one, NO ONE, has treated me better than him. He’s the most loving, caring, and understanding guy in my life. He picks me up when I fall and deals with me when I act like im 5 years old jumping off walls. We share a home together, we call our two dogs our sons, and we honestly sit down and talk about our future together every  night. Both our families love us being together and I don’t think anyone can say a bad thing about him. I’m in love with him, thank you 2011 for showing me what real love is. With these lessons and many more I don’t think I could ever say I hated 2011. It’s been a year of realization and gratefulness. I don’t think I could say thank you enough to something that’s so completely inanimate, but thank you. Here’s to 2012.